This feeling is damn killin' me.. i hate being jealous! makes me hate myself even more.. thats the reason why i dun want to be sakura from tsubasa sometimes.. i am not strong enough.. like her.. i just keep my pains inside me.. i swallow them, until its gone.. i pretend that i'm happy, but i'm really not.. seeing my friends smile is really ok for me.. as long as they are fine, i'm fine with it.. i carry the phrase....
"you can't save me.."
- no matter what you do, my wounds deep inside me will never heal.. i cant trust myself anymore.. i tried my best to be positive, but the positive side just hurts so much, so its better to neglect and be negative.. negate all of the good that comes before me, so that it wont hurt me..
my soul is crying due to so much pain.. physically, i cant cry anymore.. not even a single tear would drop.. its because i already absorbed everything.. i took all the pain that is needed for a "left alone kid" like me.. advices... easy to give out to others, but very hard to do..getting out was never easy for me..
`` you cant really save me.. no matter what you do.. ``
Signed,
Sa Ku Ra _Chii
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